Some days are a whirlwind. The only thing left to do in this type of situation, like today, is take a step back. Before making one more move or even uttering one more word, I stop and thank God for all that I have.
The second thought that crosses my mind is almost always the kick in the ass that I need. As a psychic medium whom I just love once said to me, “You have a wonderful life! Stop making mountains out of molehills!”
I gather my strength, take a deep breath, and focus on one thing at a time. That doesn’t mean that there are times, like now, when I feel like a little kid throwing an inner tantrum. “But I don’t wanna!” I want everything to change right now! And then the old soul inside me laughs and says, “Have some patience.”
At this point, I have to suck it up and go forward. Sometimes, I even have to just take a walk or a break from whatever it is that is overwhelming me. Sometimes I write, as I am doing now.
In recent months my desire to write has grown stronger. I can’t ignore it. I just want to write. I get annoyed when my responsibilities get in the way and then I’m quick to remind myself that I am so, so blessed to have these responsibilities. THANK YOU GOD! I am #TooBlessedToBeStressed.
I’m growing and experiencing spiritual growing pains, for lack of a better description. What’s that? Spiritual growth shouldn’t be painful? The struggle is real; God intended it that way. If it weren’t uncomfortable, it wouldn’t be growth. There wouldn’t be any learning if there were no desire to grow! To grow, one must become what it is that is unfamiliar to them. Ah-ha!
I’m looking for that work/life/passion balance. I believe that it will all work out. I believe that God will provide for my family and me. I know that I am not alone. As he has so many times before, God has divinely planned for me to experience this exact situation. I don’t have the answer on how to balance it all. I will keep searching. I will keep writing. And, I will keep sharing.